Friday, December 14, 2012

Seven

I hear thunder,
see more lightning
than the sky can hold.

Some expected
a pre-programmed planetary shift
in consciousness from
fears to love,
delusions to knowledge,
illusions to unobstructed vision.

Others of less noble heart
had other plans.

On the seventh day prior
to the rumored stellar divide,
a dark green reptilian
slit of an eye
opens in the center
of a formerly human brain,
sees options narrow,
starts to panic,
sends scopolamined
implant-guided killers
into shopping malls and schools,
random domestic terrorist shock-troops
to instill the necessary degree of fear
to insure maximum compliance
when the heavily armed
Kevlar-coated federal employees
later secure the perimeter,
conducting house-to-house searches
in Los Angeles, Seattle, Denver, Phoenix,
Austin, New Orleans, Atlanta, Richmond
Philadelphia, Cleveland, Chicago, New York,
Rome, Moloch and Hell,
confiscating guns and gold,
arresting anyone who shows
a moment’s hesitation
following the Emperor’s orders,
shooting anyone who resists
or tries to run.

At least,
the mystery of how they’d ever
find a way to keep paying
the soldiers was finally solved.

Veterans lead anti-war marches,
and old hippies start training hard
for hours in the desert
in full battle fatigues
executing maneuvers,
perfectly triangulated kill-zones
laid down from on high.

The Buddha says that
there are seven
wings of Awakening—
mindfulness, the analysis of qualities, persistence,
rapture, serenity, concentration, equanimity.

On these wings
no Earthly air force rides,
but radiant seagulls,
timeless recognition.

The geometry of awareness
may be shaped by cosmic cycles
in ways our kind will keep
failing to grasp for at least
another hundred thousand years.
 
We may hurtle with our closest star
through space to a rendezvous
with some hitherto
unknown punk brown dwarf
binary brother of the sun
returning from
long elliptical travels void-ward
now waiting to greet us at closest approach
after twenty five thousand years or so
playing the prodigal star
through empty temporal hollows,
wet gravity wells
quivering with fear and craving,
wormholes to the next
amniotic sac.

Even if true,
how could it matter?

It was no omnipotent God of compassion
who slaughtered 28 strangers today.

No random bastard
put a bullet through his own head
vaporizing the implant,
destroying connection
with the point of transmission.

None of this is real.
None of it.

This tape will self-destruct in
10, 9, 8,
seven…

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Eight

On the eighth day, God created the week, and saw that it was very good. God saw the first day’s sun rise again, all beings become new again, and God blessed the history-less infinitude saying “See how time is undone, vanishes the instant it arises!”

Regenesis, Ch.2,v.12-13

12-13-12
when the digits
in the pairs
are added becomes
3-4-3
add up to 10
whose digits sum
to one.

So the eighth day
before the 21st
will become one,
as will we.

There is no more reason to believe
this numerological whimsy,
than end-times prophecy
based on ancient Mayan calculations
of long-term cyclic stellar precession
that even the Mayans
never believed signified
the world’s demise.

But quite a lot,
I suppose,
depends on what is meant
by “the world.”

Given this one—
ruled by psychopaths
with nuclear weapons—
part of me is shocked
every morning I wake up,
wonder how the hell
this could’ve happened,
why I’m not already well
on my way into the next
incarnation.

As a Buddhist,
I find this very difficult
to explain without reference
to divine intervention
(most definitely not
a standard Buddhist tenet);
nonetheless,
I’ve somehow
accidentally learned to live
with the cognitive dissonance,
embrace it even,
drink deeply
from the contradictions
until they become one,
as will we.

This Thursday the Thirteenth
is cold where I live,
and the stars are invisible
to we tourists blinded
behind rain-clouds and night.

They shine just the same,
and likely will still
on the 22nd of December,
as will we.

I hear thunder.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Nine

Do not believe in something because it is reported. Do not believe in something because it has been practiced by generations or becomes a tradition or part of a culture. Do not believe in something because a scripture says it is so. Do not believe in something believing a god has inspired it. Do not believe in something a teacher tells you to. Do not believe in something because the authorities say it is so. Do not believe in hearsay, rumor, speculative opinion, public opinion, or mere acceptance of logic and inference alone. Help yourself—accept as completely true only that which is praised by the wise and which you test for yourself and know to be good for yourself and others.
 
—The Buddha, The Kalama Sutta, Anguttara Nikaya 3.65, Sutta Pitaka, Pali Canon

As above, so below.
As within, so without.
It is a pyramidal hall of mirrors,
a reflection of threes
in every direction.

Believe nothing you see here;
none of it is real.

12-12-12—
add the pairs of digits
begetting 3-3-3,
the thrice-holy triple trinity
in summary communion
becoming 9,
the number of days left
in the numbered days of myth
until the longest night,
the least expected dawn.

On this day of paradox,
passing by its detritus
in these lengthening shadows,
witnessing the extrusion
of confused deluded illusion,
something from before
the first calendar was
ever carved in stone
rises from beyond
the useless boxes built
by aging oligarchs unmasked,
dethroned by fearlessness
rising in a single human mass,
surrounding the fortress,
making the arrests.

Today,
or perhaps tonight
in just the instant
before the veils come down
and the lights go out,
around the world
through every chest
will pass at least
a single strike
of pure peace.

Pass into it
and through it
to each other
when the door opens.

There will be
nine
ways to do that.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Ten

Of all the prophecies
truly or falsely made,
few can rival
a Mayan calendar's terminal date
for lack of factual basis
on which to rest an expectation
of apocalyptic changes.

Yet they come.

Whose interests
are so mightily served
by the propagation
of this arbitrary date,
its consecration
with the credible immutability
of cosmic cycles?

“As unavoidable as gravity!”
booms a synthesized voice
from the soundless mile-wide
shimmering white metal disk
hovering motionless
just under the clouds.

I remember lights
in the sky at night—
star-brilliant flashing beams,
some red,
others green or blue.

I remember impossible maneuvers
by lightning-fast craft
of varying forms,
functions and designs,
none of which
involved wings.

I remember panic and confusion
in the streets,
thousands fleeing,
nowhere to hide.

I remember being calm.

Even then,
it wasn’t my first time.

It wasn’t yours
either.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Mission Unknown

It’s been many years
since I’ve had this sense
of being involved
in a conspiracy so deeply secret
that I,
and other key participants,
would know nothing about it
until the moment of action
arrives.

Again,
it lingers around the edges,
bumps against the hull
with every hypnogogic wave
until a readiness to hear
begins to form.

Even then,
the plan remains
a mystery.

Only the requisite skills
are revealed,
the training curriculum outlined,
expected completion dates
settled and clarified.

Then
the bumping at night
from under the sea
just past the cabin walls
subsides
as the long silent marathon
begins in earnest
topside.

We will be told
all we need to know
when we need to know it.

We will
be ready.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Noticings

Everything
has become a lesson.

The bold strokes
of passing clouds
are God’s hieroglyphs
tattooed in silver
on a sapphire sky—
the lyrics to a song
you never heard before,
never forgot.

Tears come
naturally as breath,
hearing it again
for the first time.

How good it feels
to curl your toes
with your legs crossed,
a child’s pleasure-seeking impulse
interrupting your lotus-quest
with laughter,
tempting egoic demons
to rise again
from the crypt,
loose the arrows
of guilt,
split the apple
and fall.

As vividly
as it appeared,
it was never
meant to be,
and so it wasn’t.

So much here depended
on a belief
in gravity.

I will not
belabor the point,
if there seems to be one.

Suffice it to say
I see you now;
I see all of you—
angels and archangels,
bodhisattvas and buddhas,
luminous beings and the great rays
of a light so bright
even endless emptiness
can’t contain it.

All of us
pray the mantra
in unison:
May we be happy,
free from suffering,
completely equanimous
and infinitely joyful.
 
What else
has ever been
worth praying for?

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Desert Invocation

On the precipice
of the apocalypse,
the brink
of imperial collapse,
an inner compass
reasserts itself,
the North Star leads us
into wilderness
where the Milky Way
is unobscured
by the yellow glare
of city lights,
where the air traffic
is far more rarified,
at much higher altitude,
and sometimes,
it is whispered,
not altogether Earthly.

We need no candles
in this impossibly bright moonlight;
it is shining inside enough
for both of us.

A lunar candelabra sparkles
on the grapes we eat;
we sleep naked
in the same cot,
satiated with beauty and vastness.

There are still angels
in this place the same
as when ancient Americans
tried to paint their dancing forms
against these sacred stones.

It will take awhile
for them to trust us,
but they will come;
they never left.

Be still
and see how this
naturally present timeless awareness
contains everything
and remains empty
everywhere and forever luminous,
knowing and free.

When we leave the doors open
and call for them,
they come.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Unbottled Note

There wasn't any wind left
in the old sails.

We drifted aimlessly
through the abyss
on lazy green tides,
rode the backs
of invisible serpents
until the stars changed
and we couldn't even guess
where we were anymore.

After months
with the sails down,
a day finally came
when the sun rose
bearing a brash breeze
from the boiling orange east.

We were
on the ropes hoisting,
slicing through waves again
chasing the west,
abandoning ourselves
to the faith
there was land
out there somewhere.

Somehow it made sense
to keep following the sun.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Overheard at the End of the World

On this day
a shaggy dog tale
beyond all hope or fear,
weary of the wet weight
of a long cold desperate swim,
touches shoreline,
climbs to dry ground,
shakes the clinging remnants free
in a twisting torus exploding
sprayed diamonds flashing
starlight splashing surprised skin
evaporating on the wind
dissipated laughing wingless and airborne
until only the sound of flying remains,
stays with you all the way out to the waterfall
where the sharp wave of silence roars down
on the first moment of diving
in and through to where
only the light is still audible.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

More Moments Like This, Please

Enlightenment is ego's ultimate disappointment.
РCh̦gyam Trungpa Rinpoche

It has all gone transparent,
and absolutely nothing has changed.

Sights still stream
through this body’s eyes,
just as they have for all the past
just shy of sixty years;
but I never used to notice most
of what is given by vision,
just the occasional fallen brown petal
from a once-golden cactus bloom
fleeting by twirling
on the surface.

Now the blazing river
is wholly recognized
roaring the reflection
of something like sunrise,
some ever-brighter empty
infinitely amicable density
of light.

An invulnerable fulfillment is glimpsed;
for a moment
all disappointments disappear.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Prospector’s Diamond Lightning Path

“What is a hundred or a thousand years to Them, or tens of thousands? When They come, time’s purpose is fulfilled. What never was passes to nothingness when They have come. What hatred claimed is given up to love, and freedom lights up every living thing…”
– A Course in Miracles, Text, Ch.26, IX, 4,v.1-4

“On an island of gold, there are no ordinary rocks to find.”
– Ancient Vajrayana Buddhist saying

He sweeps the ground
with a golden wand,
waits for it to sing
of what is seen
through Earth’s blanket,
buried by transparent detritus
from more recent and forgetful eons.

Everything hidden
is being uncovered.
There will soon be no secrets,
and no end to mystery.

Sitting alone later
on his torn worn naugahyde throne
on a balcony overlooking the garden
growing under dancing rainbow strands
of Vajrasattva prayer flags
flashing translucent backlit
by a bright blue endless empty
stretch of sky,
he wonders why:
who sits overlooking
whose rainbow garden backlit by
what bright blue empty sky?

The temple bell rings us
into rocking up and down
on the rhythmic waves of sound
sent singing in remembrance
of the present,
a shower of sunlight
slick as wind
against our skin.

This constant baptism
of compassionate awareness
swallows the stars
in a greater,
more ancient
and unchanging light.

A procession of shamans
kneels every twenty-one paces,
shovels the cool moist soil
with prayerful hands,
plants sage between pine trees.

An American Dzogchenpa
sips pomegranate juice
from a gilded skull-cup,
gives thanks to fearful wraiths,
hungry ghosts and angry demons
gathered restless, mournful,
famished and lethal,
blows the human thighbone trumpet
swallows them in thunder
collapsing them into his arms
embracing them willingly,
feels them dissolve against his chest
like sand-castles in waves
sees them vanish
like a mirage upon arriving
where they never were.

Clouds part
before a cool breeze slips
welcome waking over
rainbow garden skin.

A bright blue endless
empty flash of lightning
penetrates everyone’s aloneness,
and it is done.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Metapolitical Round-Robin in I-Minor

My sadness about my country
is the same as
my sadness about our species
is the same as
my sadness about myself:
We invent fictions about our nation,
what it means to be human,
who we are.

Something within me conjures
from the infinitude of possibilities
an imaginary “self,”
then identifies with its own apparition
who propagates a personal narrative,
fabricating sub-characters into series of
friends, enemies and strangers
to populate a world contrived
to mask its fears
and perpetuate the plot.

This goes on and on for eons,
but goes nowhere.
It swallows the physical continuum
in a far more spacious vastness,
and it has no size.
Everything in it is always changing,
but there is never any thing in it.

Let go of these precious gems.
They do not need your assistance to sparkle,
nor you theirs to shine.
It is all self-arising
from title page to epilogue,
even our readiness for seeing
through the dreaming
into the unspeakable presence,
the incandescence of being,
the wish-fulfilling jewel.

My joy about my country
is the same as
my joy about our species
is the same as
my joy about myself:
We undo fictions about our nation,
what it means to be human,
who we really are.

Something with me recognizes
awareness itself.
The tale spontaneously
concludes.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Wishing Us Well

We face a setting sun,
wait for the oligarchs
to wake.
A black helicopter
prowls the sky growling,
on the hunt,
hungry for taxpayers
to feed on;
but there is nothing
left to steal.

This year
we cried on the 4th of July,
winced at the fireworks,
their painfully ironic tribute
to the long-departed lady.

Weeks later,
her raised torch flames
brighter now
under creeping twilight.
On every continent,
in every nation
by the thousands,
by the hundreds of thousands,
by the millions
come December
we are rising
from the matrix
of delusions,
walking through prison bars,
free and fearless forever.

The moon soon
drags the stars
through our hair.
It’s getting cold
outside;
lets keep each other
warm inside,
remember
dawn is coming.

Stay happy,
sleep well,
dream instructively,
ready yourself
for morning.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

True Story

Thoughts arise,
appear, persist,
disappear and cease
in the same moment
without a trace,
leaving this luminous awareness
unchanged.

We pretend
for awhile
to tell ourselves stories
where we're the main character
in a world populated
by enemies,
strangers and friends.

We construct
from our experiences
the supporting evidence
for that world's reality;
our experiences reflect
our beliefs about who,
or what we really are.

Then we wake up
remembering we've never slept.

Lives arise,
appear, persist,
disappear and cease
in the same moment
without a trace,
leaving this luminous awareness
unchanged.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Tracks of the Garuda

“The nature of the bird is illuminated by the ancient Bon myth that relates how, at the beginning of time, the… [Garuda] manifested spontaneously out of the cosmic egg as a fully mature being. The Garuda can transfer itself instantaneously from one place to another.” The Flight of the Garuda, Keith Downman, 2003, p.52

“The exact size of the Garuda is uncertain, but its wings are said to have a span of many miles. This may be a poetic exaggeration, but it is also said that when a Garuda’s wings flap, they create hurricane-like winds that darken the sky and blow down houses.” – Wikipedia, “Garuda”


The end of the world
is no more real
than its beginning.

When I asked
“Who wrote these words?”
the stars came out at noon,
without effort or intent,
the sky so filled with brilliant points
it was like rain and
you could taste the silver
just by stretching out your tongue.

Fingers unclench the page,
drop the script,
exit centerstage,
keep walking until the air
is clean enough to breathe again.

In the west,
over the hills just after sunset,
those wisps of clouds,
prismatic the moment before,
subdue to silver blue.

The Garuda glides
above the darkening horizon;
tailfeathers relax,
fan out in final slow salute
to the shining sliding away.

Venus blows bright diamonds
through a hole in the dark dome,
this sacred shameless exhibitionist
rips through black velvet
floating naked on haloes,
keeps me pinned to the ground
on knees breathing hard and easy
while she peels my awareness,
exposing me to the emptiness.

I bleed joy from the pores
as Aphrodite is my witness.

The cool clear sky is still,
cleanses the lungs,
tempts the heart-mind open
until it’s trembling under the moon,
a rare midnight bloom
bathing petals in rainbow-froth,
the exuberant void coiling
into interpenetrating dreams
dissolving the instant they arise—
the glittering adornment of being,
never absent,
never there.

I have no idea who
or what
wrote any of this.

What happens with words
in the wide-open world
of what is?

The first instant
is the only one;
not one sequel follows this.

We who sleep
see nothing real—
only the moving projections
of our own delusions,
maidens and monsters
in the dark.

The “I” I was
persists a little longer
in doing what he always did.

At first,
he doesn’t even seem to notice
I am no longer there.

Then,
he smells the first faint whiff of peace,
sees the forms fear fashioned fade
from his fists,
finally lets go of littleness,
disappears with a laugh
in the vast incandescent
empty primordial compassion.

A mockingbird combs the air;
a lush cascade of audible dewdrops
baptizes my inhalation,
is gone before the out-breath.

Sparrows are singing to each other
about sunlight and water and
feeding the kids breakfast
before school.

The bustle in the branches decrescendos
into decreasingly frequent whistles
of avian gratitude as everyone
slowly hops and shuffles further
in towards the trunk,
to the darker shadows in the branches
where an altar beats and burns
in the heart of the wood
while feathered parishioners
on back-bent knees
gather in secret deep in the trees.

Did it ever happen,
or was it merely momentary misperceptions
strung together on a necklace,
a strand of sweet notes
for the Queen of Silence to wear?

In the west,
over the hills just after sunset,
those wisps of clouds,
prismatic the moment before,
subdue to silver blue.

The Garuda’s tailfeathers relax,
fan out in final slow salute
to the shining sliding away,
to tunnel-vision pretensions of finitude,
failure and glory,
drama, danger and desire,
the glittering emptiness,
this fantastical magic space-time show,
spun from nothingness,
the sweet rainbow cotton candy of dreams
is gone as soon as it
touches your tongue.

Nothing could please your mouth more
but this one last chance to kiss,
this unspent silver on your lips
where Venus left it while you slept.

The middle of the world
is no more real
than its periphery.

In the west,
over the hills just after sunset,
the Garuda spreads his wings,
embraces darkness
as it slides through lifting every feather
like the mother of flight,
the father of light
grooming him
for wandering wakeful and forever
through a wider well-lit groundless land.

We witness the long-awaited waking,
hear his call thunder-slam the ground,
echo back through the bottoms of our feet
from bedrock a mile or more beneath,
see his slow arching flight,
the invisible track carved through midnight
by unfailing primal sight,
with eyes open sea-deep,
wings wide-offered to an effortless grace
lifting him weightless through the hours,
circling higher against the stars
until he disappears
and we’re not sure what
we saw anymore.

The inside of the world
is no more real
than its outside.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Whispered Crescendo

Listen
to this wild whisper
tingling through the hairs
on the backs of your arms
like a spring breeze
through a wheatfield
in waves.

Feel each pass
of the sky’s hand
through the roots
of the stalks,
each hair as it bends,
bows to the wind,
dancing improvisationally
in shivering welcome
of this sigh against the skin.

God exhales
the first moment of salvation
when enlightenment dawns
and the darkness
of our long sightless night
breaks open
evaporating ignorance
with a wild whisper
crackling through the hairs
on the backs of our arms
like lightning through thunderclouds,
the rolling boiling flashes,
avalanches
of white-hot weightless magma booming
through a starless wet and moonless midnight
like voices from the end of time
where it all begins.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Wind Chimes

A breeze
from the northwest
slides in gently,
unpredictable gusts
crescendo and fade
at random rates,
improvisational dances
with cone-laden pine branches
serve no purpose,
no art
save surprise.

My eyes
float wide open,
sharp, clear,
uncluttered by concepts,
delight in full bloom,
well past curiosity
somewhere fascination
quivers between
obsession and release,
desire and union,
drawn down deep
into the present
like a titanium moth
to a white laser.

Stay perfectly cool
through the dense photon burn
like you were born there,
because you were.

All of this
the wind told me
while you fed the dogs.

I believe none of it;
it is as true
as faces in the clouds,
or the rabbit on the moon.

The wind is a liar,
or a storyteller,
depending on your mood.

Either way,
she blows past,
is gone.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Leftovers

The sun sets
through translucent prayer-flags
gently stirring in the light
breeze that comes from
somewhere far away when
the sun first pushed this
soft wind my way,
this tender hand across
my cheeks like
a lover’s caress to
drive me silent under
this avalanche of joy that
pins me to emptiness like
a hooked fish,
a squirming doomed ego
fighting the torrent of wind,
the fiery, empty, unbreathable air,
raging to the last spark of consciousness
against the dying of the light when
unexpectedly it ignites anew,
takes off the sunglasses and
supernovas out from the center of
everywhere all at once.

This changes everything and
I was prepared for none of it.

When the sun rises,
it seems an impossible miracle but
in the next moment it’s
everything else that’s
transparently phantasmagoric,
a vivid yet impossible illusion.

I bask in the sun at
midnight satiated beyond belief by
some cosmic lover who
chooses to remain nameless.

Space and time are
consumed at dawn in
the same way waking feasts on
the remnants of dreams until
they are no more.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Butterfly Effect

Even the ground
is sky now.

The Earth’s weight
on the soles of these feet
is breathtakingly light,
the reassuring caress
of a quiet lover’s hand
on a cold night
when the wind howls,
windows shake,
coyotes mob the moon
and soldiers march
in synchronized obedience
to their doom
and ours.

Say it will not
be so,
it will not.

Even the sky
is ground now.

The blue clarity
on the backs of these eyes
is startlingly bright,
the shock of endlessness
reflected in a real lover’s mind
on a warm day
when the clouds are gone,
clothes superfluous,
cats grace the couch
and dogs dance
in random jubilance
for their love
and ours.

Say it will
be so,
it will.

Even the horizon
is gone now.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

It's Funny

It’s funny how the world gets
all wound-up,
how contagious paranoia is,
who might stand to gain from it,
and whether or not they
think you’re getting in their
way, ironically, since they’re
so far from having a way they
wouldn’t know one if they
were standing on it,
but this won’t stop them
from putting you
in the crosshairs
if they think you’ve
become inconvenient.

He drops this morbid train of thought
when he notices it’s not
enhancing his courage.

He’s thankful the line is short.

After paying the ticket-taker,
he glances over his shoulder and
sees they’re still tailing him.

He picks up his pace.

His mind is racing
as he takes in the fairgrounds
with an efficient panoramic glance,
picks up the pace a little more,
starts to monitor his pulse and respiration rate
with the finely-tuned instinctual proprioception
of the highly-trained counter-intelligence officer that he is,
at least in this lifetime,
however shortly that might end.

The last few soaringly spiritual and
militantly ecumenical strains of
“Long Live the Second American Revolution” are
still ringing in his head as he peaks out
his adrenaline levels diving into
the garishly adorned “Uncle Maya’s Funhouse Hall of
Mirrors.”

Mirrors
of mirrors confuse at first
in the rush to get up
the spine of the place
to the heart of it.

He listens alone
in the quiet inmost chamber
lit by low green light;
but there are no footsteps following,
no flashlights swaying down the hallway
heralding hot breath from cold hearts
just doing their jobs,
bearing Berettas with silencers,
earning a living
following orders.

It’s funny how the world gets
all wound-up,
how contagious paranoia is,
who stands to gain from it,
and whether or not they finally
figured out the game is up,
the cover’s blown,
and the run is on.

When he wakes up
it’s morning and he’s a state away
in Nevada when he realizes he’s got
just the clothes on his back
and no I.D. that won’t get him
“indefinitely detained.”

He feels suddenly
inexplicably
completely
free.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Look Here

There is a gap between
each fleeting pair of moments
(the one just past,
and next to come)
through which shines
a birthless sentience,
an incandescent deathless love
casting soular flares
through the open window of this
same spacious sea of consciousness,
this one boundless and groundless
present being.

Buddha became enlightened
under a bodhi tree
watching Venus rising
in the east.

Jesus was born in a manger
under a bright star
with Venus overhead
in the mid-east.

Tonight I am sitting
on my back porch
watching Venus set
in the west.

You are already sleeping,
at least in this dream I’m having;
at least for now.

But look here!

There is a gap between
these moments shining.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Face to Face

The clouds grow thin enough to see through,
then the landscape disappears,
evaporated when backlit by the ten
billion illuminated names of God
sparkling in all directions as far as eye can see
into the distance all the way out to the vanishing point
where the big-bang eruption of energy churns endlessly,
beginninglessly the infinitely baroque adornment
of utterly unbroken emptiness
which is this whole vast stretch of space,
this incandescent centerless skinless sphere of knowing
that is never separate from us, never other,
unborn and undying ever-present Being.

The singing dancing music of our earlier utopian visions
echoes quietly among the ruins
here where the sand is already blowing through broken windows,
piling up in growing dunes
against cracked and peeling baseboards.

Coyotes forage for leftovers in the dark deserted city streets.

Weakened cats are low-lying fruit,
broken furry dripping pomegranates between
grateful grinning canine jaws
on the run, on the loping yipping run
under the full moon back to the wild river
naked and howling until we’re all hot and wet
between the reeds along the bank panting on our backs
watching the clouds rise from our breath
thin enough to see the stars through,
white with lunar silver,
laughing at the meaningless impermanent display
until the mindscape disappears,
evaporates when backlit by the single shining face of Being.